Thank You

Today is Christmas, the day you connect with family, friends. The time that can bring many emotions, the personalities vary so much, it brings pain. I question, why we can't be thankful for what we have? I talked to my family today, like many other days, they each have pain, confusion in their lives. I want to scream sometimes, Why can't you be thankful?? Each of us are blessed.
To tell the whole story.... Impossible - Each family member I speak with, expresses pain and sadness. I can only listen, wish, pray they can thank the Lord. He has given me so much, just as he has given them. But, we are like a little world, all by ourselves. I am confused from all the emotions I experienced today. Yet, in my core, I thank Jesus for what he has given me.
He gave me Clark, the man made for me, as I am made for him. I want to be able to sooth them, to guide them. But, I do not know how.......

Alabama Blue

Alabama has beautiful blue skies. I haven't blogged in a long time and really don't have much to say......

After a Recovery

It has been a long time since I posted. Clark has come a long way. We moved to Alabama, from Ohio and that is a good thing. We are in a struggle though. So, I need to blog it out. LOL. Before Clark had his strokes, he was in charge of everything. He did the finances, made all the decisions. I worked full time, but left everything else up to him. That all changed when he had his strokes, I took over, in every way. When I look back, I was determined to be strong and "fix" everything. To make this short, I became the decision maker, since Clark couldn't. Well, now (Thank the Lord), Clark is still progressing. He still has speech, reading, memory and a little right side weakness, but he has come back enough that he wants the decision making or control back. I in the other hand, don't want to give it totally up. We both recognize this and talk about how to handle it. We disagree a lot and it escalates to a fight status more then we both like. We want to level out. We want to some how come to a agreement that, neither of us need to be in control. We can work equally with each other. But, man that is easier said then done. I am sure other stroke families have experienced this. I think Clark and I are starting to go in the right direction, since we at least understand what has happening. I think what I need to do, is to back off more, keep the little "lips" sewed shut more.
Here we go another stage in our marriage, the other end will be wonderful....